16th Nov 2009

Love says "Never close your lips to those whom you have opened your heart" Theres only one person came to my mind~ but its all over now...What i saw updated on her status in FB lastnite...my heart went all broken~

2 great voice i like very much now

Finally get to know who actually sang the song 'Ru Yen' from the drama "Little Nyonya" .. Thanks to Xing Guang Bang.. I've always like the song even when i wasnt even following the drama at 1st. The melody of the song itself caught my attention..

Last Sunday, while watching Xing Guang Bang, When Olivia Ong was introduced with the song performed 'Heaven'...wow...her voice is soothing~ today googled alot of her songs...and felt very calm listening to it....

Anthony was the other one captured my attention alot on the show last sunday, when he sang "The Blower's Daughter" originally by Damien Rice. On the 1st part to the chorus 'I cant take my eyes off you'...my god.....touched deep deep down my heart... I heart him now~ hehe.. i missed out when he sang for the last 2 episod PK. i listen half way, and that time it did not capture my attention to him... Well, he presented "the blower's daughter' song very very well.. like Momoko tao says "we cant take our eyes off you"..hehe Everyone was being pulled into his voice and song....full of stories from the song...heart capturing.. This afternoon, watched the repeat of it again...and before that, i was up here busy googling from youtube for his songs...hehe....heart him...he's good looking too...well well..i guess its a matter of time now when his album will be out in the market~

Facebook Restaurant City

Welcome to my FB Restaurant city cafe... made the floor piece into a heart..representing... better keep that to myself to know.... Love the sweet colours too...

Wish if this is actually a house design creation as a game, it would be more fun..ok..at least fun for me...bed..sofa..lcd tv..etc etc... Games creation people..faster come up with such game in FB...hehe~

Waiting for space expand on higher level to create more things on the floor....hehehe..

29th Oct 2009 i found him?? The Pemalu~

Brought few pictures together for her to see and tell me more details....and happens that i found this photo with 2 guys in it...

Curious to know and hoping to hear that that's the guy she meant..while in the pic there's the other guy whom i've notice back when i 1st join our company..Initially planned not to directly ask her if he's the one [ thoe deep down he's the one i wanted to ask on actually...], as planned, i asked if the other guy was he the one.. to my suprised...the one i did not intend to ask...she came telling me... "you found him eventually".."he's the Pemalu from the beginning told you.." Suprised suprised~ Wow...i found him~ whom i've got not a single idea whom she kept telling me...

Ok~ i found the pemalu somehow.... But kinda disappointed the one i was hoping to ask wasnt the one she was refering too...Sigh~ but it's ok..at least i know who she meant now.....


Kept thinking of what Vincent told me sometime back when we meet up with him. My real friends are outside...colleagues are only colleagues... When he told me that, there's a couple of colleagues i refer as friends poped in my mind..which i didnt and did not intend to believe Vincent. I kept telling myself, nope, he's wrong...they are my friends....but with that said, his words has never left my mind. I kept it all the while and busy looking for the answers too. Well....today, at this point of time..after been through many things. i kinda get what Vincent is telling me and what he really means.. Things comes in a bigger and better picture with what Kak Ida told me... With my heart opened and with finally with a willing heart..i see through many things..

But i've yet to find some answers...What are friends actually?? I've beginning to be very curious and i no longer know how to define it.. i cant find a suitable mask to wear now. I'm kinda lost. I've opened my heart and treated whole hearted...But i dont know who to trust anymore~

I'm not timid but i really dont know how to face anyone anymore...Perhaps i need to dive futher down in my heart and mind to figure it out....or perhaps the day has not come yet for me to know on the answer..but i hope its not too late later~

Panic attack

Logged in to my FB minutes ago..and at a glance i saw on the side.. " The Engagement Photoshoot" adn below i saw her name.. I got a heart attack,almost cried.. Clicked into it and come to realised it wasnt it.. It was someone else's photo album.. Went back to my page and saw..its just commented on it by "her" Gosh~ but i felt a smile on my face..relieved... Gosh panic attack..

but well its just a matter of time i guess.....God~ i cant do this anymore...

Imaginary world

Sometimes i wonder if everyone will have their own imaginary world.. I know i do have one. I remember asking this question once to Mindy. She told me she once have as well..but after entering working world..she has got no time to think of it.

Well..now that im in the corporate world as well...but my imaginary world is still within me.. But at times it makes me happy, it cheered me up..sometimes i cry out of it..sometimes i feel im crazy imagining things and talking to myself..at times i feel im having depression..


I remember "Hoi Long Wong" told me to just be myself.. But Who am i?? How am i supposed to be?? Im confused~ After watching 'Shoppaholic', there's parts where i kinda relate to myself. Her post part where it's something she has deep down inside her..so call real thoughts??.. and also the parts where the manequins were "talking-reacting-greetings-watever-its-called" towards her. Well, i dont "talk" to manequins. i dont have one particular imaginary friend. I have different scenarios, with different people, at different places. My storys goes here and there. I doesnt have a beginning nor any ending. It can comes and goes anytime anywhere.

The qs : Am i mentally ill??

I feels like a wandered spirit going about looking for the "best" body to fit in. perhaps for me..the "best" character to fit in..

Shoppaholic

Mel...Rebecca Bloomwood...hahaha suddenly i recalled~ after all the bollywood..afterwood..watever wood i thought off...kakaka