Facebook Restaurant City

Welcome to my FB Restaurant city cafe... made the floor piece into a heart..representing... better keep that to myself to know.... Love the sweet colours too...

Wish if this is actually a house design creation as a game, it would be more fun..ok..at least fun for me...bed..sofa..lcd tv..etc etc... Games creation people..faster come up with such game in FB...hehe~

Waiting for space expand on higher level to create more things on the floor....hehehe..

29th Oct 2009 i found him?? The Pemalu~

Brought few pictures together for her to see and tell me more details....and happens that i found this photo with 2 guys in it...

Curious to know and hoping to hear that that's the guy she meant..while in the pic there's the other guy whom i've notice back when i 1st join our company..Initially planned not to directly ask her if he's the one [ thoe deep down he's the one i wanted to ask on actually...], as planned, i asked if the other guy was he the one.. to my suprised...the one i did not intend to ask...she came telling me... "you found him eventually".."he's the Pemalu from the beginning told you.." Suprised suprised~ Wow...i found him~ whom i've got not a single idea whom she kept telling me...

Ok~ i found the pemalu somehow.... But kinda disappointed the one i was hoping to ask wasnt the one she was refering too...Sigh~ but it's ok..at least i know who she meant now.....


Kept thinking of what Vincent told me sometime back when we meet up with him. My real friends are outside...colleagues are only colleagues... When he told me that, there's a couple of colleagues i refer as friends poped in my mind..which i didnt and did not intend to believe Vincent. I kept telling myself, nope, he's wrong...they are my friends....but with that said, his words has never left my mind. I kept it all the while and busy looking for the answers too. Well....today, at this point of time..after been through many things. i kinda get what Vincent is telling me and what he really means.. Things comes in a bigger and better picture with what Kak Ida told me... With my heart opened and with finally with a willing heart..i see through many things..

But i've yet to find some answers...What are friends actually?? I've beginning to be very curious and i no longer know how to define it.. i cant find a suitable mask to wear now. I'm kinda lost. I've opened my heart and treated whole hearted...But i dont know who to trust anymore~

I'm not timid but i really dont know how to face anyone anymore...Perhaps i need to dive futher down in my heart and mind to figure it out....or perhaps the day has not come yet for me to know on the answer..but i hope its not too late later~

Panic attack

Logged in to my FB minutes ago..and at a glance i saw on the side.. " The Engagement Photoshoot" adn below i saw her name.. I got a heart attack,almost cried.. Clicked into it and come to realised it wasnt it.. It was someone else's photo album.. Went back to my page and saw..its just commented on it by "her" Gosh~ but i felt a smile on my face..relieved... Gosh panic attack..

but well its just a matter of time i guess.....God~ i cant do this anymore...

Imaginary world

Sometimes i wonder if everyone will have their own imaginary world.. I know i do have one. I remember asking this question once to Mindy. She told me she once have as well..but after entering working world..she has got no time to think of it.

Well..now that im in the corporate world as well...but my imaginary world is still within me.. But at times it makes me happy, it cheered me up..sometimes i cry out of it..sometimes i feel im crazy imagining things and talking to myself..at times i feel im having depression..


I remember "Hoi Long Wong" told me to just be myself.. But Who am i?? How am i supposed to be?? Im confused~ After watching 'Shoppaholic', there's parts where i kinda relate to myself. Her post part where it's something she has deep down inside her..so call real thoughts??.. and also the parts where the manequins were "talking-reacting-greetings-watever-its-called" towards her. Well, i dont "talk" to manequins. i dont have one particular imaginary friend. I have different scenarios, with different people, at different places. My storys goes here and there. I doesnt have a beginning nor any ending. It can comes and goes anytime anywhere.

The qs : Am i mentally ill??

I feels like a wandered spirit going about looking for the "best" body to fit in. perhaps for me..the "best" character to fit in..

Shoppaholic

Mel...Rebecca Bloomwood...hahaha suddenly i recalled~ after all the bollywood..afterwood..watever wood i thought off...kakaka

Painful on ex's wedding

As the 3 of us was walking in to the banquet hall, S was greeting us from inside. That's where A turn and told us " this is the time where i'm going to my ex's wedding dinner". She ended the sentence with a smile on her beautiful fully make-up face. Ouch~ was what came to my mind. Gosh~ She's still stable and calm..pretend to be??

I knew S and A been very close frens. Never did i thought there's another "secret-thingy" previously. As we were rushing down to the destination, i was following V's car but i can sense that A is driving anxiously. I only thought that because S is her very good close fren, so she doesnt wants to loose out even on the brother's wedding. What scare me most is when she almost hit a motorcyclist. Luckily the motor manage to stop on time.

After lead us to the dinner table, noticed the newly wedds were smilling their way inside the grand-ly decorated table (something like in a cage). Our table was just next to the bride and groom. Wow~ so near.. As there was stage performance.. and soon it was time where all weddings will do. Lovey dovey moments how the couple grew up-met each other-love blooms-leading to marriage.. I turned and saw A.. watery sparkling big eyes.. Sigh~ Suddenly i felt like hugging her and tell her its alright..

The night ended not too long since we arrived. Congrads the newly weds and thanked S for inviting us eventhough it was the brother's wedding and yet i only knew her and not the brother..

I wonder if i was ever invited to my ex's wedding.. Would i think back all the sweet times?? Would i remember all the hatered?? Would i cry?? Will i feel Ouch?? What will i do? How would i react?? I guess.........i'll have flashes back somehow..be it sweet or bitter...but i dont think i will miss them dearly already..I've get over them.

Huggies to my dear fren A~

Island to release Un Neccessary Stress

Another day wasted. Kinda regretted never went back to office to do my things. I know it sounds crazy..but..well watodo..later i will have "un-neccessary stress". I know i kept using this word these days. But wat to do~ really causes me UN-NECESSARY STRESS!!!! feels like screaming my lungs out...

Talking bout that. I suddenly remembered i was really screaming my lungs out while playing pirate ship back in Hong Kong. I remembered the 1st when i play inside a mall, i was screaming too. 2nd time was the flying carpet in Sunway Lagoon, was screaming as well... and everytime i played that, i kept telling myself it would be the last time i'm ever gona scare the shit out of myself..No Guts!!! Eventually....4th time?? Erm~~

I'm moved to a new place in office. It's so much nearer to my boss and her boss...my god...feels so uneasy.. Next week my boss is back after a weeks leave...luck i oni c her on monday then i'll go on leave..weekend i dont see her as well...keke..

Can barely wait to go to the island..Something came to my mind as well when we planned to go to the island..Thts where 'they' met each other..Thts where they started.. Thoe i know they are both back here..but...somethings there...Sigh~